Life story

Part 1
24.05.17

So today i met my sv dr juzaiddin at ptm ukm. We were discussing on what im going to do after this since my tesis was not complete yet.

Alhamdulillah, dr still want to accept me as his student. He still want to guide me until i complete my fyp.

A few days ago i had this one illness which called depression. It took me a whole week 2 recover. Alhamdulillah again allah gave me a few friends for me to stand again on my own.  It occur to me coz im tired of doing anything alone. I need someone to guide me, be with me all the time. Just like my family.

Then i realized what i really need is not someone but allah. He is the one who know what is the best for me. I just need to pray n follow. Learn how to be redha,  tawakal

part 2
28.05.2017

3rd ramadhan..

Assalamualaikum w. b. t.,
Alhamdulillah we are meeting with ramadhan in 2017.

Today im going to tell u what i u asually do when ramadhan come.

Before fasting,  we have sahur. Usually my family would wakeup 30 Minute before adhan subuh. During this time, we usually eat light sahur except for my brother,  the youngest one. He need rice for him to proceed with fasting. While the other family member, we dont really mind any food as long its not too heavy. So for today sahur,  luckily we went to McD n bought . Usually mom would wakeup at 4.30am to prepare breakfast. But this morning, she overslept n couldnt have time to prepare everything so we proceed eatung burger i bought yesterday. As for the drink,  i prepare date's milk for me. Its my first time drinking it so it not really tasty probably i put less fresh milk. From the facebook,  they said by drinking this date's milk,  we can withstand fasting for about 16 hours. Interesting right? Thats y im trying out for myself to see it is true or not.

Basically we will be fasting for about 13 hours. We can only eat after adhan maghrib. Then waiting for adhan isyak to procwwd with solat sunat terawih for 8 rakaat and witir, 3 rakaat

Before this, i means last 2 years, my mother n i we went to surau to follow riadah. This riadah does not mean exercise ok? It means riadah for rohani/spirit in ourselves. Most of our days,  we will be working. But at night we increase our ibadah. It the biggest opportunity that any muslim would try their best to do more ibadah just for allah and the reward which is jannah.

However this year its different. Mom need to work so hard to find money for we to survive. She need to cook n make kuih. Its was so hard. I know coz i help too. I dont want to force her going to riadah. I understand she was tired. But it was only for this month. Work is an ibadah too. My parents wont let me go alone so i need to wait for my mon to go. I really really want to go but without my parents permission i cant go. So i need to be patient. Im sure allah had a greater plan for me and mother.

part 3
14.06.17

Bismillahirahmanirrahim..

this few days had been a great day for me
spending time with friends
its going to be the most memorable before i leave this place
since i had short term memory

u guys are one of the reason y i can stay here. i would never forget ur kindness and everything. u guys would always be in my prayer. im not going to stop our relationship here. although we wont see each other after this, but the memory will still remain. insya allah.

I am thankful to Allah. giving me a chance to meet this people in my life. I dont know when im going to leave this world. So my dear friends, thank you very much. Lets meet at Jannah